I leave in 6 days!

I can't believe I leave in 6 days. It still doesn't seem real. I'm thinking that it will all seem real when I am standing in China holding my baby. People keep asking if I'm ready to go? Ready? Well, that would require me doing more than sitting on the couch. I have a million things in zip loc bags sitting in a suitcase, but I wouldn't exactly call that packed. The baby stuff is packed. Most of Eliza's clothing and gear fits in my carry on. Don't ask how much my carry on weighs...probably a little more than 20lbs. or whatever I'm allowed. I don't have a scale at my house, so I have no clue what anything weighs (including myself). Denial!
I'm sleeping pretty well at night considering my life is going to be changing drastically in the next few days! I wake up at the same time everyday without an alarm clock, but I needed to make sure I was up and out of bed by 7:00 am because I have a meeting. When I got up it seemed kind of dark. It was dark because it was 6:00 am. My alarm clock was the one clock in the house that wasn't set back for daylight savings. I've been acting so loopy lately. I keep telling everyone to please excuse me, my brain is already in China.
On Monday I found out that the orphanages in Inner Mongolia are not permitting people to visit. I was a little sad that I won't be able to see where Eliza has been for the first 9 months of her life. I really hope someone takes pics with the cameras I sent.
As you can tell from this post, a million things are running around in my head. I sit (in my permanant indention on the couch) and wonder if I will recognize Eliza when I see her? Will she be freaked out by me? Will the clothes that I packed for her fit? Will my suitcases weigh 400 lbs. each? Only time will tell! Did I mention I leave in SIX DAYS!?!?!?